Funny enough this afternoon I was trying to get back into my blogging routine after a week of not even looking at it, when I could not find inspiration to write. Everything that I noted down I was not happy with so I stepped back. 

It's half past ten in the evening and it's the time I feel most inspired to write, where I actually think my words make sense together and I'm not rambling too much when it takes to a review post. I also feel like I have enough energy to write a month worth of posts, but with that would come the boredom of having to wait for time to go by to come back and write again. So I try not to do that mistake too often.

A declutter happened around my beauty stash, I threw away a lot of things (unfortunately) and filled a bag with a lot more to donate to friends. This makes me feel relieved but at the same time guilty for all the things I ended up wasting and for all the money I spent on them... would probably be closer to getting something greater now. 

I wanted to mention this in a way of not only sharing my experience and what made me change, but also ask you if you've been through the same and any tips you can give me and everyone else reading to get better at living with less and being happy with it.

By any means I'm becoming a minimalist, I sure know I couldn't do it, but I just want to become more of a conscious buyer. Save for my future and have a less cluttered life.

How many of us carry on buying the last new thing but get home and realises there's only so many concealers that should be opened at the same time?! That's me, or it was for a while, until I realised I don't need to buy more and more makeup unless it's used up, expired or doesn't work out for me.

I would like to tell you my back up stash is this size, but I'm afraid it's three times as big and mainly filled with mascaras.

These are some of the products I'm most excited to try, but being honest that Vichy foundation has been there for a year now and I guess I should just start using it before it reaches expiration date! 

It's been months since the last time I touched my watercolours, and one of these days filled with boredom and almost sadness for not creating anything in so long I just gave in! Pulled out all my materials and started sketching. I lost a bit of the practice I've once had but the love was still there... Watercolours have always been my favourite media alongside ink, and to be able to draw again was almost a disconnection to the real world. 

Here's some of the things I created while inspired! I've stopped for a while once again, the holidays approaching make me work more and more hours and have less time to take care of my personal life but hopefully once this season is gone I'll be able to loose myself once again in the magic of splashing colour! 

I guess I just need to justify why I've been absent for a month, and funny is I didn't even notice the time go by. If you're an avid reader you've noticed I wrote a post on why I was thinking of quitting blogging overall and just live life as it is, considering I'm not getting much further in my blogging path or accomplishing the targets I would've like to by this time. Truth be said I haven't given all the time in the world to blogging and even thou I love it and is one of my favourite things to do I just can't bring myself forward to leave everything else behind for this.

After 3 years I can say, is frustrating not seeing major changes. What's wrong? The way I write, my photos, my content? I have no idea. I'm not the best at sharing my posts but when you have 500 followers you expect more than 18 reads a day, if you're lucky you'll have that much. 

I've always said to myself and other fellow bloggers, numbers don't matter but they do nowadays, it seems like if you don't have a certain amount of following at the end of X years you're just a failure as a blogger. It came to me that why bother sit down and write about things if people don't care to read? If it won't make them come back or if my photography is a bit grey because - hey I live in London what can you expect! 

I'm trying to move my life forward, I finished my course, I want to be a make-up artist full time but is so hard and takes so much money out of my savings to have a minimum decent kit. All of this together I still work 5 days a week at the bakery, and not having the best team ever with me it just sucks that I can't just quit because where am I going to get money to pay my bills right...

All of this together adds up to the fact I don't see progress as quick as I'd like to. I want to stick around but I come I write something and then I don't publish because I'm not feeling it. I've always been proud of my achievements but it comes to a point where there's so many people at my age doing so much better than me in life. So why bother if I'm not getting there even after 3 years. 

I'm not calling it quits right now but I don't want to spend all my life trying to be good at something that I potentially am not. 

Regina was the town we stayed for the most part, and where I spent all my money at Sephora! More on that to come later! 

Being it a small town and nothing like London it was good to get out and see some street art and different roads to the ones I'm used to. I can say I would not live there as I love Kingston way more. The problem in this part of Canada is that you need car to go everywhere which sucks when you don't own a license. Apart from that is a small town that has everything you need and good places to visit. 

Basically the Wascana Centre that I shared on last post is in here so you already have a good excuse to visit this part of SK.

On the weekend we've been to a closer city  - 3 hours drive away but that's their definition of close in a country where you get on a road that you just need to go straight for miles and all you see is fields with corn stover and sheep eating grass. The city in question is Saskatoon but the only pictures I have from it belongs to a park we visited, full of autumn-y leaves! I hope you enjoyed all this pictures from Canada and if you've been there recommend me a place to visit next! I'm planning on going to Vancouver next year! 

How do I even start... last week I was told I looked like a 17 year old and being honest I didn't like to hear it. It's not a bad thing to be 17 when you're 17, but I felt like if you don't know me just by the looks you judge the things I achieved. And this is a way of proving wrong. Looks not always are what they seem to be.

Anyway, I actually turned 21 yesterday, sounds weird to say it. In Portugal 21 is not a big deal, the 18th is thou, but at this place and time I'm not feeling it like the most important thing ever. It's nice, is my birthday. I just stop to realise how many things I achieved in the past 21 years and that's what makes me feel complete. So here's a little story of my life ( since I was 15).

Today is the 3rd anniversary of Mary Bloomy!! 

A lot changed in the past 3 years, for the most part in my personal life, if you've been following me for a while you may know I moved to a different country and by this time in 2013 I was just about to start my pastry course. To think that I finished my make-up course last week seems surreal. It's been a ride that not always was documented in this place but will be shared at some point.